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| Julie |
| Not So Easy |
| 02.17.2010 11:43:27 | |
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I had someone come up to me when I was leaving the gym tonight and tell me..."you make it look so easy", referring to single parenting, working full time, training, etc. I'm glad that it looks easy because the truth is, it's anything but!!! I decided to blog about this not-so-sunny topic because I have a feeling that I'm not the only competitor who sometimes struggles with the question: Why am I doing this? I ran into Brenda Dixon in the locker room at Gold's tonight and we touched on this a little bit and when she said "I know exactly what you mean", I thought there must certainly be many more out there just like us! There have been many days when it just seems like there is far too much on my plate and a competition is the last thing I should be doing. After all, to compete is a CHOICE, no one is forcing us to train as hard as we can and diet like crazy. We have chosen this path. I'm sure we all have a different reason for choosing to compete. We all have our own, unique force that is driving us to be disciplined and determined and striving to achieve the best possible physique we can. I can tell you that I do it to feel strong. I do it because it is the one thing in my life that is about ME and makes ME feel like I am doing something positive for myself. I have questioned myself at some point during every contest prep since I started out in July of 2008. This is the first time that I question myself A LOT! I am always exhausted - mentally, physically and emotionally. Some days I just don't feel like I have it in me. Those are the moments when I really have to dig deep, adjust my attitude and remind myself to focus on the goal and know that I can achieve great things...whatever I set my mind to. I remind myself that I am strong and that getting to the stage is proof to myself that I can and WILL do anything! I remind myself that I am a CHAMPION in my own mind and champions do NOT quit, they dig deep and they push through. The prize is in crossing the finish line and knowing that you gave it your all. The prize is not the tiara or the trophy. The prize is knowing that you can tap into that inner strength and turn your dreams in realities. It's not always easy. If you ever question yourself and wonder "why am I doing this?", know that you are not alone. But know that you are a champion and you must push through! I found this quote today and posted it on my Facebook. This one really spoke to me and I printed it out really BIG and posted it on my wall so I can see it all the time. I hope it inspires you as well! "Learn from the past, set vivid, detailed goals for the future, and live in the only moment of time over which you have any control: now.” Denis Waitley Tags:
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