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| Bren |
| Somewhere In Between... |
| 05.09.2010 12:23:30 | |
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Hey everyone! I haven't blogged in a while, since I haven't been feeling up to par lately. I haven't been extremely sick, but I'm not really well either! So, like my blog title, I'm somewhere in between! You know the feeling...blah! A week or so ago, I started becoming exhausted all the time...more than normal. I wasn't getting the sleep I needed and my training was starting to suffer. I just didn't have the energy. Things at work were crazy, and I wasn't getting my protein shakes every few hours throughout the day, like I'm used to. Little things were beginning to add up. Stress at work, not enough sleep, falling behind on housework, lack of time doing anything fun, recent break up...blah, blah, blah...and I was getting crabby! I knew I needed to change things in my life. So, I took some time to reflect. I took a step back and focused on things that make me happy. I realized that I wasn't spending any time doing the things I love to do....reading (usually fitness magazines), listening to quiet music, taking walks, riding my motorcycle or my bicycle, and having coffee with friends. My life had become boring and mundane, and a bit of depression was starting to set in.
Earlier in the week, I woke up one morning and as soon as I got out of bed to get ready for work, I felt lightheaded, nauseous and had a terrible stomachache. I'm a dental hygienist and I see 10 patients a day. I don't call in sick to work. I showered and as I was getting dressed I realized that I wouldn't be able to work the way I was feeling. So, I called in sick. At first I felt bad that I called in. I started to second guess myself. Maybe I could push myself. I listened to my body and crawled back into bed. I slept most of the day. The next 2 days, I called in sick as well. I knew that my body was telling me something, and I had not been listening to it lately.
So, I learned it is important to listen to your body when it is trying to tell you something or it will just shut down! My batteries ran out! I didn't train at all this last week. I know it will be ok, and it won't set me back too much. This week I will have more energy since I listened to my body and took some time off, and I can once again hit the weights hard!
As of today, it is exactly 21 weeks until the Ironman. For those of you that compete, I know that sounds like alot of time. For me, it means I have 21 weeks to lose 15 pounds before I get onstage. I know it sounds easy, but I have work to do! I have lost 75 pounds to date, and my work is not done yet. I'm feeling great about my progress so far. I love going into my closet and trying on clothes that I haven't worn for 10 or more years, and finding that they are too big! Yay! I am giving all my "big girl" clothes away, since I will not allow myself to ever be fat again! The feelings I have about my changing body are priceless. I feel normal again!
This week, I learned about balance. It is important to me to concentrate on bodybuilding, and it can be all consuming, but I realized that I needed to have more balance in my life. So, I will do my best to stay on task in the gym and get my chores done efficiently, so I have more "fun" time.
Think On It:
Take care of yourself. Listen to your body. Find balance in your life.
Bren
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